smile.
the most beautiful and powerful weapon.
every time you smile, nothing else seems to matter.
every time you look at me, the intensity is so capturing.
every time you hold me, i wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
and each time you would say, i'm yours and yours only.
even if forever didn't exist,
there's still now to believe in, at least.

you're just so incomparable, so irreplaceable, baby.
and all i wanna do is make you mine.

back in my head, the line between right and wrong
has been so distorted.
not much is left of values, morals and principles.
when stubbornness disregards and starts to blur out the vision,
it's high time to ask for discernment.

officially 17.
birthday wishes are what really make birthdays feel like birthdays,
especially so for those who send at midnight and the
unexpected one from hendy.

pre-birthday stayover celebration with besties on sat.
we had a fabulous night with 2 slices of birthday cake, poker game,
manicure, and last but not least, gossips.
breakfast at 5 plus and took almost an hour to walk home from tiong.
best part of it all was to know that qihui actually thought
of turning to christianity!
SAJC influence.
but i'm glad anw.
























































after that comes sunday.
so sweet of mum to plan surprise after praise and worship.
dimmed lights and walked in with birthday cake.
so touched that i disgraced myself. cried in front of the kids.

instead of a birthday card, sis gave me this.
undeniable great photoshop skills huh.
loves any any way.hahah!





















pre-birthday gift- sore throat.
there goes my voice yesterday and today.
but still, today was awesome.

emo time;
A BIG HEARTFELT THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE WHO MADE
MY BIRTHDAY A LOVELY ONE.
LOVES:D

baby, thanks for coming down today.
i love you.

worship yesterday at the kids' side was awesome.
i teared the sunday before when i finally
went back to the childrens' ministry.
the turn up rate and the spirit of the kids then
were totally saddening.
but god moves in his own miraculous way.
nothing touches my heart more to see the kids
move together with the worship team yesterday.
the kids that led worship with me were no older than 12.
and i thank god they have been a great cooperative team.
all i could say is, GOD IS AMAZING!

tonight was the best night of the week.
it has been pretty dead at home the entire week
as faith and emmanuel were out of town
and returned only this morning.
and so we had dinner out.
then to dempsey,
then to botanic garden.
we made hell lot of noise, breaking the romantic night
and disturbing couples.
my sibs can be such intolerable nuisances most of the time
but hell lot of fun at times as well.
faith made me laugh real hard tonight.
i have to admit, life would be bleak
without her and her doses of nonsense.
:)

A me-and-my-sis dialogue yesterday.

me: grace, you don't have to get me a present for my birthday.
Just make me a card.
grace: I'm gonna make you a card because i don't intend to
get you a present.
me: thanks man- :(

But what actually went on in my head was, "WHATEVER".

Today.
I came to terms with a couple of things
that have been bottled up for too long.
It can be quite scary how ms loh can see through emotions.
But thank god she did, thank god we talked.
Her word of advice: time to let go and move on.

Seldom do i have the chance now to read
and have coffee for companion in the morning.
But as i do, i come to realise some sad fact of life.

It can be quite appalling how a technology derived
device, like the mobile phone,
can have such a significant impact on us and our daily lives.
For many of us, it constitutes to our daily essential needs,
or otherwise feel handicapped without it.

So often, subconsciously, we have developed
the habit of checking our phones every now and then.
And for some of us, our fingers so cannot leave the keypad
for long, that it chocks up such amazingly high phone bills.
I pity the parents as victims of our indulgence.

It was much upon my mind to doubt, on a personal view,
whether the phone has evolved to do us
more good than harm.
It would be such a challenge to ditch this toy.

For now, i shall go back to my coffee and book.

I can never quite find another
confidant like Melina.
Never need to.
I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND(:
Such an impromptu lunch date.
Really sorry Grace.

Saw this hc couple at the opp table.
It just reminds me of someone and his gf.
If only i can stop being reminded of things.

Moving on to GIS project.
Was rather disappointed that NEA
couldn't provide us with the info that our group needs.
This means no crow fieldworks during the coming
march hols.

Sad.
That leaves the group to decide whether to do
the initial proposal or come up with another
better idea.
I reckon that we'll have to do goh's idea.
Once again, march hols will not be spared.

Practiced 800m in 21 mins
WITHOUT pyjamas.
To pass, 800m in 30 mins
WITH pyjamas.
Another hurdle of 4 mins thread water.
There's still room for improvement.

Tired.
But still loving tues.
Loving 1 hr lesson.
Loving swim.

Coach says i need to self train for stamina.
Gonna build manly shoulders and biceps. ):

Something feels missing today.
We haven't been this quiet since the past month.
A probationary period i would say.
hah.

FEB 29.
Mount Faber.
Sweet.